Dear void, recent events, which have led me to a life of perpectual nothingness, have provided a rude awakening to my supposedly aching vessel. Til this day and age, i have not amounted to any idea of a possible career which would most probably carry me to my untimely death.
Will i be an office worker stuck in between walls of cubicles in a dead wasteland of paper products and plastics, skin pale due to everyday exposure to fluorescent light. Nah. Or will i be one who thrives in torturing men into their smallest juvenile self in green camo and combat boots. Well...maybe not. As i walk under the void decks, carrying bags of food items, seafood, milk powder, instant coffee, diapers,etc... i wonder if there is a need of a well educated, height challenged, army trained, floor sweeping, window wiping, carpet vacuuming, rice cooking, egg frying, instant noodles boiling, children friendly (maybe not with all the mj fiasco), television addicted, music loving, baby carrying (again maybe not), grocery shopping, healthy and totally helpful young adult with quite a good sense of humour. It will require a monthly payment of $3000 (wait, finish the sentence before u act all surprised) , which may be compensated up to 50% by boarding and regular meals. Hmm...how is dat for service.
But for now, i will relax and enjoy my movie indulged, cpf non-paying life. However, if u want to engage in this introductory offer, do hurry bcos of currently limited stock. Have a nice nite dear void.

Dear great void. I'm in need of help. I woke up today feeling as though the life has been sucked out of me...i mean totally drained. It seems that everyone i know has something going on. Studying, learning to drive, travelling, partying, watever. Me..well, i am FROZEN. I am stuck in the limbo that i believe is of my own doing. Why am i where i am now. Have i always wanted to lead or am i just decaying into the background story that has been expected of me. Even now, i am questioning my own identity. Yes that's it, i am facing an identity crisis. Who am i? A son meant to save his family from imminent destruction? An actor, a liar living in everyone else's dream? Or just a pawn in Fate's twisted little schemes?
Well..C'mon man. Out with it. Who the fuck are u? What the fuck are u? Can't even talk to her? Be a man for goodness sakes. Make up your mind. "Take that first step", remember? That's what u promised yourself. Now..what are u gonna do. WHAT are U gonna do......

Hello there great void....Hope noone's listening in. I watched a movie last week. I went to the cine with no idea what to watch ALL BCOS THE STUPID CENSORSHIP BOARD RATED SIN CITY R(21). Well, c'mon. I don't get it. Nobody's nude in the movie. There is just a lot of vio...i mean action. I waited months to watch that movie. God.
Well, that's not the story of today. I was browsing the movies shown and they were showing 'CRASH'. I didn't really know what it was about. All i know is it had a lot of stars in it. (like sin city) It has the Cheadle guy, Sandra Bullock, Brian Frasier, Ryan Phillippe, the guy from wild things, Ludacris and many others. So i guess that could interest me enough. So i entered the cine with no expectations. And i was completely blown away. It begins with the Cheadle guy saying that because of the people in LA's lack of contact with one another in their own little solitary worlds, they crash into each other in inexplicable means just to feel contact. Hence the title. And then u enter this little world of Los Angeles, blasting the theme of racism as a surface however what i think has a deeper statement to make. What i got from the movie is how truly grey life is. Its plastered across the movie. There is no good guy or bad guy, or at least an obvious one. Both sides have problems to deal with. It's like understandin and rootin for both sides which drives u nuts every step of the movie. I truly gasped and cursed under my breath.
It's also about truth. U noe what they say that the truth will set u free. It's a whole lot of bull. Knowing the truth will only make ur life even more complicated than it already is and give u a choice to take it or not.
So all i have to sum up is watch it. U'll love and hate it and want to talk to someone else about it. Too bad i was alone in the cinema except for one person(no idea of gender) three rows in front. So go. If u've watched every other movies showing now( or u'r sick of seeing tom cruise on screen), watch CRASH. I say, u will be gasping for air. Rather sad really.

Recent events have awoken me from the deep sleep that is the army. What have my friends been up to. Ask yourself. How have u been doin? Honestly.
I truly hope that u all are doin mighty fine. I realise that right now everyone my age is facing some problem or another and it may become difficult. Not so much for the guys who go week by week wondering "what the hell i'm doin here". But we do have little problems in-camp. Not considering the ones out of camp. The thing is there can be no avoiding these problems that everyone is bound to face in their lives. The only way to survive the days is to get through it as quickly as possible. Think the simple things in life that make u smile every other day like book-outs, bonuses, that cup of java u're gonna get later, the niece waiting to greet u home at night, birthdays, that girl u've been watching on the bus every week, etc.
The idea is distraction. Smile every opportunity u get. (not when u're superiors watching though. they'll think u're too free) So go out. Have some fun when u can. Go to the games arcade at lunch time. Aim for the smaller goals that come along the way to bigger ones. Seize that day.......Damn, booking in tonite.

PASSIONS VELVET

Tears run across her cheeks as her blood courses through his veins. She falls in a faint onto the lacquered floor. In the tinted flashes of light, nobody could witness his crime. The masses within The Tempo continued to move to the beats of the music. He walks out of the club without concern, much less guilt of a lost life. She was really just one girl. One of many he has consumed through the ages. Only a body containing the sweet nectar of life for his kind. As he glides through the streets, especially in the snow, not one passerby would notice his nearly porcelain face. Another night passes. Thirst quenched, he decides to return to his haven in the towers that watch over the city.
Around the corner, he sees mere youths dressed in their 'gothic' black attire, claiming the night with their own brand of music, praising their ties with the devil himself. One of them hadsomehow grafted his teeth into fangs, frequently growling to show it off to his companions. He smiles in amusement at their lame attempt of becoming one of his kind. These mortals don't even understand his kind.
Vampires they call them. Creatures of the night that hunt and kill mere men as meals to sustain them. They can only be destroyed by stakes of oak through the heart, cloves of garlic or the sunlight. Rubbish. Plain old stories made up to scare children from playing at night. Thankfully most do not even believe in the 'superstitions'. Makes it easier to lead their lives.

to be continued.......

He lives in two lives, none of which is a lie. He is intertwined in fate's pleasure in seeing mere mortals' hopes perish with indignity. In one he is the wonder, the pride of his kind, suffering the turmoils of the real world, fighting against the future preset for him, written in the blood of his lineage. In the other he battles inner demons within the inner circle, infected through sins of man which threaten the lives of the ones he love the most. Truth and lies both mute and stab his already broken heart. He runs through both these lives with constant aNiMosiTy, praying for a miracle that can break its cycle. No escape. No safe haven. No justice. Just periods in limbo, away from his reponsibilities, in the curious rarity that they come along, can provide him peace. Cutting his veins, he pleads for a saviour only to be answered by a claustrophobic silence. He wonders, maybe what he searches for lies only in the darkness beyond. Maybe.

Ahh..finally booked out from the chalet. I came out on good friday but it was extremely short cos of my confinement. Since my stay at home will also be brief, i don't have much to say. Thus i shall give u a stanza of one of my favourite songs rite now:

Well if u set ur mind upon it
I know dat u can
U've got everything u wanted
U've done everytin u planned
So let me make an offer
I'm only tryin to help
U can make ur load
Just a lil lighter
All u gotta do is share the wealth.

P.s. I had written a short in camp. But i can only publish it here if i can transfer it somehow. I'm lazy to write it down. :D