Due warning, this post maybe slightly morbid to some so if you do not wish to think of death or anything which entails it, you should move away from this site. -

Recent events, within this year perhaps, have been tough for some persons around me. It has come to a point that a sort of trend has developed in which i have unconsciously grown accustomed to receiving the untimely messages. It is sad to think that the only time that you can see who had cared for a person or people taking effort to make time from their lives to turn their attentions to a person is at the point of the person's passing. This uncomfortable fact reinforces one of my worst fears on this earth, which is to die without anyone's knowledge. To make this more specific, if I should die, I would wish for several people that matter to me to acknowledge my passing. Recently, a form of it has even haunted my dreams. So right now at the point when I'm typing this post, I'm making a list. Not a list of people whose lives I have touched but more of people whose lives had touched me. I regret if I have forgotten some people who should believe they had mattered in my life thus far but the people of this list matters most to me at this point of time. For the people who happen to read this post, this is in no way a form of a suicide letter. I am not a man with a death wish or am i addicted to the thought of death, I am simply a person 22 years of age, who has not had the opportunity to start a family of his own or imprinted any sign of his existence in this world thus far except being within the hearts of a few. I would hope to believe that this list will grow as I age and I would not wish for it to shrink at any point of time, for no matter what happens in this future, the individuals of this list have done their part in my life. It is regrettable that the people in this list would only know at the point after I'm gone but this is the only way it should be.
The one lesson you can bring back from this if you wish to, is that you should embrace the people you care about as often as you possibly can because you will never know what may lie in the future. I sit here in my room thanking with all my heart to the people who matter, now and forever more. But I surely hope that I have touched your lives as well. May peace be with you.