Dear great void. I'm in need of help. I woke up today feeling as though the life has been sucked out of me...i mean totally drained. It seems that everyone i know has something going on. Studying, learning to drive, travelling, partying, watever. Me..well, i am FROZEN. I am stuck in the limbo that i believe is of my own doing. Why am i where i am now. Have i always wanted to lead or am i just decaying into the background story that has been expected of me. Even now, i am questioning my own identity. Yes that's it, i am facing an identity crisis. Who am i? A son meant to save his family from imminent destruction? An actor, a liar living in everyone else's dream? Or just a pawn in Fate's twisted little schemes?
Well..C'mon man. Out with it. Who the fuck are u? What the fuck are u? Can't even talk to her? Be a man for goodness sakes. Make up your mind. "Take that first step", remember? That's what u promised yourself. Now..what are u gonna do. WHAT are U gonna do......

Hello there great void....Hope noone's listening in. I watched a movie last week. I went to the cine with no idea what to watch ALL BCOS THE STUPID CENSORSHIP BOARD RATED SIN CITY R(21). Well, c'mon. I don't get it. Nobody's nude in the movie. There is just a lot of vio...i mean action. I waited months to watch that movie. God.
Well, that's not the story of today. I was browsing the movies shown and they were showing 'CRASH'. I didn't really know what it was about. All i know is it had a lot of stars in it. (like sin city) It has the Cheadle guy, Sandra Bullock, Brian Frasier, Ryan Phillippe, the guy from wild things, Ludacris and many others. So i guess that could interest me enough. So i entered the cine with no expectations. And i was completely blown away. It begins with the Cheadle guy saying that because of the people in LA's lack of contact with one another in their own little solitary worlds, they crash into each other in inexplicable means just to feel contact. Hence the title. And then u enter this little world of Los Angeles, blasting the theme of racism as a surface however what i think has a deeper statement to make. What i got from the movie is how truly grey life is. Its plastered across the movie. There is no good guy or bad guy, or at least an obvious one. Both sides have problems to deal with. It's like understandin and rootin for both sides which drives u nuts every step of the movie. I truly gasped and cursed under my breath.
It's also about truth. U noe what they say that the truth will set u free. It's a whole lot of bull. Knowing the truth will only make ur life even more complicated than it already is and give u a choice to take it or not.
So all i have to sum up is watch it. U'll love and hate it and want to talk to someone else about it. Too bad i was alone in the cinema except for one person(no idea of gender) three rows in front. So go. If u've watched every other movies showing now( or u'r sick of seeing tom cruise on screen), watch CRASH. I say, u will be gasping for air. Rather sad really.

Recent events have awoken me from the deep sleep that is the army. What have my friends been up to. Ask yourself. How have u been doin? Honestly.
I truly hope that u all are doin mighty fine. I realise that right now everyone my age is facing some problem or another and it may become difficult. Not so much for the guys who go week by week wondering "what the hell i'm doin here". But we do have little problems in-camp. Not considering the ones out of camp. The thing is there can be no avoiding these problems that everyone is bound to face in their lives. The only way to survive the days is to get through it as quickly as possible. Think the simple things in life that make u smile every other day like book-outs, bonuses, that cup of java u're gonna get later, the niece waiting to greet u home at night, birthdays, that girl u've been watching on the bus every week, etc.
The idea is distraction. Smile every opportunity u get. (not when u're superiors watching though. they'll think u're too free) So go out. Have some fun when u can. Go to the games arcade at lunch time. Aim for the smaller goals that come along the way to bigger ones. Seize that day.......Damn, booking in tonite.